It still feels like yesterday Abu.....
it still feels like it was just happened....
i still regret the day i left without...saying bye....
i can still see u in that hospital room....i still see me praying more than ever before....
I still feel like i am begging God not to take you away
I can still hear me telling him to give us one last chance....
to organise...us...to seperate those dreamz we planned to live together.....
i can still see you in that room where i was stopped from going.....
The strangest and most un-believable...of all....
i can still see you in tht box lifeless...
i can see you being carried a life time away from me.....
It still feels like that day i sat there listening to all the tales of how great you were....
you didnt tell me alot of these....thingz..u were great bro.....
i still feel the pain..fresh...while the world narrated their last days on earth with you..i sat up listening...with not so much to say..........
i didnt say bye Abu...it still kills me.........
I still see me taking the last photo of you before ey put ..metal barz en cement on top of you
while the rest of the world walked away to yield to the hunger...
I stood there staring at you....
If heaven is for real...i want to believe ure not down ere......it hurts.......

Abu...my geek...gone....!! still feelz like yesterday

No body seems to care any more
no one cares tht ure not around any more
every body back, eir lives normal
I still stare at your empty room....ur shoes re now kicked around by spike......
They dnt knw hw it feels like Abu
They dnt knw....that youre not here any more......
the world goes on each day i feel like stoppin en i cry.....

I dont know what it is!

I dont know exactly what it is..
It might be all the things i see on the surface, thingz that every one notices and admires about you

Qualities and capabilities.Your wonderful smiles, ouviously connected to a warm and loving heart,
It might be all the things that set you apart from every one else
May be its the big things the way you never hesitate to go a million minds out of your waay to do whats right......
the way you shape your todays to help stage for so manyu beautiful tomorrows...
Or maybe its the little things words shared heart to heart..
un-spoken understandings, sharing seasons making some very wonderful memories,
The joys of two people just being on the same age in each others history.....
its simply you.....